Today we've got a meeting at the preschool. The teacher wants to talk to me about how best to help C in her first year of kindergarten, and I need to find out why she's so horrible to people at home. Part of it is an age thing, I'm sure. And another part is that she's had such a massive year, with lots of major events, and it's a lot for anyone to process, let alone a five-year old. She was stunned to learn that Charlie loses her mind the moment things don't go her way.
This coffee I'm drinking is really, really, good. I sincerely hope they never go out of business, because I don't think I could ever drink anything else. I'm officially a coffee snob.
More laundry today, because let's face it - with a family of 6, there's always more laundry. I like laundry though, so that's cool. I also have this urge to bake some more focaccia - we're going to the community carols on Sunday, and bringing a picnic dinner, and some olive focaccia would be yummy! It means I need to go get more yeast though, which I can do after the preschool thing. With my three younger kidlets. :)
For now, I need to get dressed, finish this coffee, and thank God for The Crazy, because I wouldn't have it any other way. :-)
Friday, December 9, 2011
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Insight
I discovered a few things about myself recently.
I like being in control of my immediate universe. So things that I do not control, I do not like.
Like eczema/allergies. I do the best I can to manage it, but when I hear the sound of one of my children ripping their skin to shreds, my blood pressure goes up instantly. If I'm driving, I start to speed.
There are many things in my life right now that are absolute chaos. Yes, I have a lot happening. And much of it, I can't control. Acknowledging that, and embracing it, have put me on a path to a much more peaceful place. Taking a different perspective, and seeing The Crazy as a positive, rather than a negative, has made it a bit easier to not lose my wits. Oh, sure - when you walk in the lounge room and see your five year old fingerpainting mostly on paper but spilling out onto carpet, it's a challenge to offer up peace and patience. But it's a bit easier than before, because now I'm embracing the fact that they're NOT little adults. They're kids, and kids do stuff like that. I'm not saying I'll let her paint the carpet, just that I'm trying to keep it all in perspective. Letting go of small things, and learning to focus on larger issues, is far easier. Loving my family means loving them not for who I'd like them to be, but for who they are.
I likened it to a train - I was letting others decide how the train should operate, thinking that I was making it easier on myself. In fact, I was letting go of what gives me great joy. Managing, organising, and taking care of my family, that's a big part of how I love them. By getting back into the driver's seat, I feel so much more purposeful and capable. I'm not letting other people dictate what I can or can't do anymore, and finding my own route. Because the truth is, I am me and no one else. I don't have to do things the same way others do them. It doesn't make me better, or right. It just means that my life is what it is, and I not only acknowledge it, but embrace it.
Now excuse me, because the kids are turning the Christmas tree on and off. Again.
Embrace your own Crazy - you'll be amazed at how liberating it is!
I like being in control of my immediate universe. So things that I do not control, I do not like.
Like eczema/allergies. I do the best I can to manage it, but when I hear the sound of one of my children ripping their skin to shreds, my blood pressure goes up instantly. If I'm driving, I start to speed.
There are many things in my life right now that are absolute chaos. Yes, I have a lot happening. And much of it, I can't control. Acknowledging that, and embracing it, have put me on a path to a much more peaceful place. Taking a different perspective, and seeing The Crazy as a positive, rather than a negative, has made it a bit easier to not lose my wits. Oh, sure - when you walk in the lounge room and see your five year old fingerpainting mostly on paper but spilling out onto carpet, it's a challenge to offer up peace and patience. But it's a bit easier than before, because now I'm embracing the fact that they're NOT little adults. They're kids, and kids do stuff like that. I'm not saying I'll let her paint the carpet, just that I'm trying to keep it all in perspective. Letting go of small things, and learning to focus on larger issues, is far easier. Loving my family means loving them not for who I'd like them to be, but for who they are.
I likened it to a train - I was letting others decide how the train should operate, thinking that I was making it easier on myself. In fact, I was letting go of what gives me great joy. Managing, organising, and taking care of my family, that's a big part of how I love them. By getting back into the driver's seat, I feel so much more purposeful and capable. I'm not letting other people dictate what I can or can't do anymore, and finding my own route. Because the truth is, I am me and no one else. I don't have to do things the same way others do them. It doesn't make me better, or right. It just means that my life is what it is, and I not only acknowledge it, but embrace it.
Now excuse me, because the kids are turning the Christmas tree on and off. Again.
Embrace your own Crazy - you'll be amazed at how liberating it is!
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